i know you probly wont read this since you most likely dont go on this anymore. but twinkie i go so much in my mind. i know you told me to sleep but i tried and i cant. im sorry for everything ive done wrong to you. i really dont mean it. you should know how i feel, at the moment im crying just waiting for you to call me and say you love me, or even just a message to let me know that you still care. but i didnt get any of those. i dont blame you for feeling like this. im scared that this blog will be my last, i dont know what or how your feeling right now. if you still love me or not ? earlier today before i went to sleep in the afternoon, i remember how happy i was cause i talked to you, i wrote a note to you promising that i would appreciate & be with you forever. ive tried my hardest to keep you from being mad or hurt you in anyway. cause hurting you is one thing i never want to do to you. yet it was so easy for you to hurt me tonight? i even told you, and you say as much as you dont want to.maybe cause im weak. i dont want to get hurt, i dont want to feel the pain i feel when we have problems. these ups&downs makes us stronger in the end. i hope this makes us stronger. & not tear us apart. cause im not ready to lose you. i never am & never will be.
i love you twinkie..   LOVE:bonbon<3